This morning the Lord told me, “write down your hurt from 2017.” He said include circumstances, people, and situations that caused you great pain last year. I write today’s post with that list in the forefront of my mind. Below you will find a link to the guide I am using during this journey.
Day 1 of 21: Figuring Out Forgiveness
I want to forgive. It is in my heart to forgive. I just am not strong enough. I have so many reminders of things that occurred. So much has been done that has caused great harm to myself, my family and loved ones. I am not talking about anything passive but malicious and targeted acts. Help me, Father.
These acts were plural in nature. No single event occurred, but I have experienced constant ongoing affliction. The hurt I face must be similar to how we hurt our Father. Each one of my shortcomings must have some impact on Him. The great thing about our Father is even when we mess up His love remains constant and unwavering.
I really do trust God in it all. I even trust God’s judgment on those I seek to forgive. It just seems I forget about God’s grace to get me through the process of forgiveness. I must remember that God does not treat us as our sins deserve. As I journey these 21 days, I will learn not to treat others as their sins deserve. I will learn to see individuals separate from their sins against me.
I am currently reading the book of Revelation. I am halfway through. It amazes me our Lord really gives us every opportunity to repent of our sins. Even visual and physical ailments of what the dark abyss is if we do not turn to the light. To me, forgiveness is a state of peace in our hearts knowing God is the One whom judges and makes things right. When someone hurts us, it is hard to let go of the circumstances and pain. It takes time to heal, just like a wound heals. But, “the scar” is a reminder that we can choose to be healed by our Savior.
Thank you so much for the comment. I cannot wait till Jesus brings me through the process of healing and forgiveness. I want to be able to share my scar with others so that they too will know healing is possible.